He gives out a light air into the conversation or rather the lecturing. He tries to keep the purple cloud of negativity outside his soul and the context of the gathering. His optimism is incredible. Is he a cog that tried to escape with the make believe poor sense of humor and bad classic jokes? I bet he is deeply embarrassed by the ridiculous misinformation he just said. He tries to escape the ridiculousness with mere exaggeration of facts to condescend his mistake.
He systematizes the rules that we should follow to finish the course safely. Why systematize? Why reach afar of your humanity? Your brain has a chaotic way of thinking, there is no system in one’s train of thought, you go as random as from the blank infinity of the universe to how a cold bottle of whiskey feels to how “Ramble On” is such a great name for a song. This randomness can lead to utter chaos, so you overcome it with organization. But is it organization or is it prison and sadness? In any case it’s a successful method in the education system so as to keep the oily machine going without any true intent of passing on a real experience of thought.
It’s horrendous! He stretches the sentence longer with a one word descriptive exaggerational joke! I have nothing against a sense of humor, i’m actually a big fan but I hate bad taste. A person seems to be having a problem that the Funny man doesn’t want to handle right now, so he responds with alienating rich with humor replies in between the conversation (yes that’s what I choose to call it now. Conversation.) with us.His system is filled with crippling rules that my poor mind probably won’t keep due to my short term memory loss that had occurred due to my intense drug consumption. He can talk for long stretching mindless hours about a single sentence or even a word and when there’s nothing to say he gracefully consolingly shifts with the topic to keep talking till he has reached satisfaction. His continuous flow of ranting about mistakes is interesting and momentarily gripping. See he has reached a level of knowledge that is far far beyond anyone else in the room engaged in the conversation. Our starts are merely out of being helped out or making the funny man smile. To him his level of genius is beyond any human present, no one can match him or destroy him or challenge him if he puts his mind to it. We know nothing, he knows it all. A seed and a tree. An awkward eye contact and a deep look of love. A shoe and God. Justin Bieber and Freddy Mercury. A tomb and a crib.
Cigarette break.
An actual break now, a chance to continue the mindless blabbering outside and for us to enjoy a moment out of the system given to us by the system…. Back and late five minutes, without the internal fear of an ill doing. A rebellious act. Yes it can be that small. We’re asked to imagine living in a 1 meter width street. I suppose it feels like your world is so tight and congested , an illusion of imprisonment or somehow freedom. You’d be tempted to cross just because it’s so small, a place that urges you to explore every single thing in it due to it’s compacted size. If a rule is passed on or a goal is put on for everyone in the street, being the cozy place it is people with automatically search and destroy. As I sit, I’m visited by “Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas” as he questioned what he was doing. Was it a real job he’s doing or did he got caught up in a drug frenzy that led him here? Is it something real that we’re all doing or did we get caught up in all the things we “should” do due to it’s societal significance and meaningful (on the shallowest of levels) virtue? Is the funny man really trying to send a certain point here or is it imperative to fill the full time allowed, for him to feel an experience of hard work in his subjective thinking? You realize the emptiness.
After hitting the toilet filled with curvy pubic hair and coming back about to leave, I realize one thing. Here’s the thing about the system; it’s smart enough to know that it needs to give humans more leisure time. If it didn’t have to, it won’t. So it gives them this gap or break or holiday. The cogs and the potential cogs find it an experience of freedom and it fulfills them. The funny man along with the gathering now realize that they should enjoy a well deserved break.
I’m leaving here as neutral and as listless as I came in, I will not participate in this treat for the cogs to keep them going. To them I’m not happy,I’m emotionless, I’m a freak, an abnormality, I’m dead.